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2010-12-22T01:51:00.002+08:00

exams are over! doesn't sound much of an appealing idea after all - when you know that its the last dec hols before you graduate. no more holidays when one starts working. *sighs*

2010-11-23T03:27:00.004+08:00

i don't like how school tends to suck the life out of me. it's tough to sustain interests in other more exciting things around when you're trying hard to cultivate the mood for studying, lest sustaining the interest. and ya, keeping up with the pace when there's so many things going on.

2010-10-25T02:31:00.003+08:00

cousin's wedding dinner's tonight. this period seems like it's time for the 1980s babies to wed. i like this theme, classy chic retro shanghai theme. i know it's stupid but i fantasized about my personal wedding list while sending off guests to their tables at the reception.

i'm living in my big fat useless dream. have to poke a hole soon. it's not going to happen!

2010-10-11T22:07:00.003+08:00

a china box, or what ang mohs call it, filled with jumpy little stuff. pretty much sums up what i think: period of uncertainty now.. i'll never know how i'm going to feel tomorrow and what's gonna happen. (at least i know i'm feeling relieved today after finishing with 2 important quizzes)

2010-10-09T01:16:00.005+08:00

something is telling me to not stop holding on to the foolish hopes and dreams i have. i shall give myself a grace period of 2 years upon graduation, and then stay rooted to sg. maybe.

2010-10-02T00:46:00.003+08:00

goodbye july.

he was almost saved by a phone call by someone keen to adopt him. however when we called up SPCA, he was already put to sleep. and everything happened barely 3 hrs after we left him.
a phone call a little too late, my last min decision not to see the injection process, and the last day to return the old house keys - what else can i say? 心酸.. the past 11 years with july reeled past, and i still remember everything. he will be a nice and heartbreaking memory. and i think i don't want anymore dogs after thunder. i'm going to devote my weekends to spending more time with her now

2010-09-23T22:29:00.003+08:00

Moon jelly / Aurelia aurita / ミズクラゲ

some things are best left hidden away from the world.

busy week with a single project. and lesser tutorials as compared all the semesters i had. nonetheless i was still kept busy.

2010-09-06T21:20:00.002+08:00

i'm truly convinced that life is unfair, in many ways and situations which you have no control over, but in many ways you can deal with that damned situation. this requires more effort though, it just runs you down, breaks you apart and questions your perserverance.

everyone's optimism is wearing thin now, the worst is happening, but there's really nothing else we can do. "i wish" doesn't exist in my dictionary anymore. what's worse than worst i can kind of imagine it, but i still wish it won't happen.

let go or hold on, that's just it. just a single thought of letting go and it is over. for this i have come to believe the decision dad made best addresses the situation.

no mood for studying at all :p

2010-08-27T23:58:00.002+08:00

just added a counter - for fun, and a playlist widget, i ❤ the colour scheme i created. nice songs to listen to while thinking through stuff, when you're drinking coffee or watching the rain. supposed to soothe the mind, i need more of these when school starts i guess.

祸不單行 or misfortunes never comes alone. there's been a lot which happened lately at home. have met up with hopelessness many times at night. still wondering but not giving up i guess.. i think there's nothing else everyone could do but to hold on. dad said i seemed "unconcerned" about everything, but please pardon me the nagging. everyone already their own share of worries, till i don't want to talk about it anymore. right now the best i can do is to continue giving lots of support.

2010-08-27T22:22:00.001+08:00

2010-08-18T23:56:00.002+08:00

2010-08-16T15:10:00.005+08:00

holidays (without traveling) seems to bring out the best of the nuah in me. there seems to be so much lethargy in everything i do. and how much i love sleeping. been eagerly attending many gathering with friends, brings back goood memories and of course the company (better when it's with beer/coffee.) probably because i know that come 2 weeks later i'm gonna be deprived of these when i'll find myself once again self-absorbed in school and everything surrounding it. --- i kind of wondered what has led me to feel this jaded. i feel i need to get out of s'pore again, haha but i don't know what for. being out there makes me feel more alive, in control. and what i've read from a friend's: i'm/we're "living in a sterile bubble called SG". i couldn't agree more..

i haven't really been doing nothing so far, i'm not a total piece of nuah sai, i've been packing my stuff into boxes yep cos' we're moving house, and being a dutiful daughter helping out with the housework. (oh of course not as hardworking as my dear sister, but haha less antsy.) i would love to find a job if i could, but situations permit me to stay put a home as the best solution.

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2010-08-10T13:17:00.000+08:00

2010-08-09T22:43:00.005+08:00

SU17's over! headed back with yanli as helpers to the programmers. seriously tiring as we had tasking for every single event. it went smoothly fortunately and the weather was way too good. i am in a very serious chaota state, the tannest in my life. way darker than an average malay. had much to comment on the camp but i shall not rant it out loud here, events which i thought were a real success was sea sports, my #1 favourite event and su16 event. for the rest either i wasn't too involved to be able to comment on it or i thought it wasn't up to last year's standard. after this year's of graduating programmers, i'm not too sure if i should stay hopeful..

2010-07-31T21:54:00.010+08:00

i gotta feeling that next sem's gonna get me real busy. job/masters hunting, house moving, overseas trip planning and a cGPA to maintain.. and SU17's coming! our last camp before we graduate, so why not help out and get soaked in the fun atmosphere and relive our freshie (and programmer) days..?

cheers to the 4 sub groups: MSG, J. Co, Franksters and 黑社会. i could tell much effort has been put into all the planning, but how everyone translates all that planning into a concerted effort remains a challenge. screw-ups do/will happen and it's up to us programmers to react swiftly and come up with a counter-plan.. 加油!

swam for the first time in 6 months. as usual, i'd acquired a swim suit tan line. and we visited her today, feels better and i hope things will get better. we need to come up with a plan, somehow.

2010-07-20T23:59:00.003+08:00

it seems weird, but i must be suffering from denmark exchange withdrawal symptoms. occasionally i find myself thinking through random events happened during exchange. in one instance while i was trying to sleep in Stansted Airport on transit to Copenhagen from Edinburgh, i was thinking through everything that happened during the greece-turkey-egypt trip.

and today when i boarded the bus, i thought i saw chulmin. and while going home i thought i saw daichi. when u look at random people at any random occasion, various insignificant thoughts comes to your mind - u can analyse their faces and attires, create stories about their lives and backgrounds, or predict their destinations or whatever. whatever, but they reminded me of those in containers. must be really missing everyone. all these yearning might stem from the dissatisfied life i'm leading back home, possibly..?

later tonight, yanli said on msn, 'life there is so dreamy'. once more, memories from the past 6 months poured out. damn, feeling slightly emotional. i don't know how and why, i start to think of people and events, who i travelled with and to where, container life, etc. anything about everything basically. aish, i really miss everyone, more than how i used to miss any other people. they are all really nice friends whom i wanna stay in touch with. how are u guys doing back home?

met up with some progs today, feels so nice and homely. and also the crossers for dinner at funan's TCC. really HAPPY! catched up a lot. time's limited and i hoped we have more time together, catching up and looking back. too bad zzz is flying back to melbourne sooon. feels great to have a bunch of girlfriends whom u can talk about anything to all these while.

true that i can't escape the social norms and responsibilities. i have to find a stable job with a decent income, to repay the loans and not accumulate interest. probably i'll end up as a grumpy and jaded office lady after graduation.

http://www.cinemablend.com/new/An-Illustrated-Guide-To-The-5-Levels-Of-Inception-19643.html
what the heck is that? it reminds me of taking a photo of someone who is taking a photo of someone, stuff in layers.

2010-07-10T17:24:00.005+08:00

i'll be home real soon, in a week. it feels so weird, as though i've already gotten used to life overseas, i already feel like an expartriate living in europe. i've long missed home, my family and friends, every single and small familiarities, behaviors and patterns around me. like sleeping on the train on my way home from school, or getting free fastfood discount coupons.. though home is where the heart wants to be, i don't really have the urge to go home, yet. not that the friends i made here are better than the ones back home, or living in Denmark is better than in Singapore; it feels as though i am not over and done with europe, or exchange. there is still so much more to learn and explore. the only consolation is that even that i am back in copenhagen, everyone else has gone home, so no point staying longer in denmark.

whale and dolphin research expedition at the Hebrides of Scotland - something i'm glad that i've finally done it. the number of times i puked on the boat never beats the moment i see a basking shark, fin and full body upclose, and when the minke whale surfaces. there was lots of infomation to gather about them from this trip.. they're changing their feeding patterns, locations.. while we can't pinpoint the exact reasons, there's a lot to believe that it's due to human activities. fish farms everywhere are equipped with this acoustic deterrent device 'ADD' to discourage seals, porpoises and dolphins from coming close to their salmon.. the high frequency ranging clicks it produced are so irritating, when i heard it on the hydrophone. olly the scientist said that seals might be willing to go deaf to steal some fish, but i guess it have somehow harmed the dolphins and porpoises negatively, forcing them to avoid such places where they usually are, and look for alternative feeding spots. aish.. human activities. what the Trust aims to do is to get a better understanding of the animals residing in the Hebrides, gather more data and knowledge, to equip stakeholders with better understanding of the natural environment before they introduce a policy.

life on board the Silurean is surprisingly pleasant! i thought as the only Asian i'll somehow get lost in their conversations, which i did, but it turned out to be a fasinating experience. there was an old English couple, 2 ladies from USA, and a girl living in Scotland. there was lots of sharing and telling, lots of open talk and fun. i really like them all. the skipper and first mate are really great people. i'll put some photos up on fb soon.

lastly, the summer trip to greece, turkey and egypt was SERIOUSLY GOOD FUN. the company and places. the best trip of my lifetime. there's too much i can say but that's all i wanna say.

once everything's over all's left is for one to reminicse and savour every memory of the time of our lives, i think i need lots of time for this..

i have a new motivation to start working and saving up so that i can go to korea, japan and thailand.

2010-06-24T07:27:00.002+08:00

back from the long trip to greece, turkey and egypt. too overwhelmed to recount everything that had happened. been too many places, experienced too many things. i had so much fun, not feeling tired even that i'm back in copenhagen. 1 more day and i'm off to scotland. (:

2010-05-17T08:51:00.002+08:00

i need to get stronger. go ROX

and it seems like i'm not going to be in denmark for the whole of june.

2010-05-07T04:13:00.002+08:00

was sort of stunned while stumbling onto something on fb. woah, i do feel happy. was a little stunned at myself for still feeling stunned, perhaps numb. hmm why? as for the other case, pure hopelessness turning to apathy. haha. i'm happily evolving into a nun.

things at home feels chaotic on the inside. one simple decision to move has tons of implications. me over here, can't control what's going to happen to july and thunder. there are other considerations as well. i'll miss serangoon gardens for sure. life stops here and everything over in singapore doesn't stop as well. pending problems grow, and become significant for one to care about the time it become troublesome. heartache every night. i miss home, but sometimes i don't want to go back to it. of course i got worried and i rather go home in the end. i need to be there for biaojie. should i start finding a home for july and put up july on fb for adoption? ):

after i reach home, time to add some dollars to my account. i will look for a part-time job, perhaps in jurong point. no more $!

2010-04-29T00:53:00.002+08:00

leaving for amsterdam and berlin tonight. other things aside, i realize that the academic part of the exchange student life is coming to an end. boo, not looking forward to this. means i'm going back home soon. life and reality seems to have stop momentarily now i'm here, and starting to feel the resistance to go back and resume motion. and finally i'm now an Earthwatch volunteer. YAY!

2010-04-17T07:44:00.002+08:00

easter trip has long ended, and already i'm itching to go on another trip to somewhere, to move around, travel, to see, smell, hear - experience different kinds of life. will be going to amsterdam and berlin the end of this month, with yawen :) been wanting to meet u here while u're still in sg.

finally did a run, yesterday. approximately 26 mins for 5k. its super lousy in cross country standards. but, running in bulky trackpants and thick sweater is not easy. i miss running in my singlet and shorts, and also my asics kayano. thankfully i've been in good health ever since i got here. no fever, sore throat, cold or whatever.. it must be the good air here.

projects are accumulating, exams are coming. just received the risk report results which me and joann done. i got 2 excellents out of the 3 exercises which i contributed. feeling satisfied. the good thing is for studying/learning here, the motivation i'm feeling now comes from pure interest and enthusiasm, pardon the travel mode slugginess ya, but i like attending lectures out of curiosity and wanting to learn more about pollution/contamination/alternative energy. i'm dreading membrane technology, dunno how am i going to cough out a research paper due june.

i have been attending history of technology lessons with a Danish professor on a 2-to-1 or 4-to-1 basis with joann all the time. we have been discussing on philosophy, industrial revolution, us and technology, us and evolution, revolution, etc etc and we'll gonna touch on the Renaissance soon. Science and Thought, Rationalism and Emperilism, Causality.. all those chim philosophical stuff, mind boggling and troublesome, but really thought provoking. its interesting to know more about history and technology, not via textbook or lectures, but through readings and active discussions. i'm reading this thick book on history of philosophy. it will be a challenge to finish this before i go back home.

i am suppose to make cheesecake tomorrow. its gonna be my first time baking.

very likely i'll be joining a dolphin and whale research expedition. when things are finalized, i'll annouce it proudly on facebook. heh this has been on my mind when i applied for exchange.

personal thoughts and life aside, friends i've made here are really nice, i can guarantee that for the closer people i know. classmates and project mates are kind, no bad blood between me and anyone. though i dont actively seeking people out for dinners and outings, i get invited, and i can always pass by people and randomly start deep conversations when i pass other containers. its alright to eat alone at times, since i've been fallen in love with eating my cheapo carbonara, cooking and preparing own food alone makes me happy somehow.

i'm gonna soon buy coffee powder and creamer. my instant coffee mix is running out. time to learn how to make coffee using that weird little metal jug.

finally, i miss everyone at home. and the food!

2010-03-31T08:26:00.002+08:00

halfway through the easter trip, had been to helsinki and estonia and just arrived at latvia this afternoon. everything's been really good and nice, or say that even when the weather's not been nice or the activities are not the adrenaline rush types, i still feel happy at every single little thing that happened.

helsinki - the foggy weather, soumellinna and ice-skating. estonia - the amazing hospitality and how we became friends with more internationals: estonians and koreans. truly experienced the estonian lifestyle. not forgetting the medevial architecture and pastel-colored houses. latvia - awesome architecture. every building is unique. and finally i feel warm.

now i don't wanna go back to denmark that's for sure.

2010-03-26T11:05:00.002+08:00

i have been sleeping after sunrise for the past 2 days, and now its 4am, and i'm not even halfway through with my packing for this easter trip. i'll be back next next monday!

2010-03-13T05:37:00.003+08:00

experiencing iceland withdrawal symptoms. photos up on fb, but its only some of the 1000+ i had. and time to switch to mugging mode, tons of work piled up, never had this before in ntu - now u know how serious this is.. 2 weeks later - helsinki, tallinn, riga, palanga - 11days.

2010-03-10T05:24:00.003+08:00

bade goodbye to Iceland as soon as i said hello.

time flies and 6 days passed.

experienced, seen, and traveled places, natural wonders.

met, talked and known Icelanders.

it feels like, you're walking down a path arched upwards against the sunset, such that you can't see what's in front of you and you're not sure why are you heading in this direction, but you have a pretty good feeling of what's in store for you.

seen/experienced:
the atlantic blue
frozen bubbles in glacier ice
whiteout at glacier hike
rainbow under waterfall
mink whale kebab :(
somehow inspirational arty film
astronaut porn at the art museum
unexpectedly serious htht with a bad macchiato
late night viking beers
golden circle tour
blue bubble
geysir
crater
1 cheese nacho/2min
green aurora
milky way
saturn
totally crazy wind
discussed the Iceland economic crisis with an Icelander
got inspired
mud pots
lava fields
the blue lagoon and first times
understood 'heaven on earth'
got poorer

happy!

2010-02-11T05:49:00.002+08:00

a failed attempt to go ice-skating this evening, cos the people at the park renting out skates are on strike :(

winter has this hibernation effect on me. don't feel like studying, just want to sleep whenever i'm in the room, and have sweet dreams. i had a funny dream where i was scolding the ang mohs all the hokkien vulgarities :/

this easter holidays i might be planning on estonia, latvia and lithuania. quite unexplored. i'll leave finland/norway/sweden, summer iceland, scotland/ireland, greece/cuba and maybe austria/switz/germany/italy to the summer holidays - if i still afford.

2010-02-08T04:26:00.002+08:00

the weekend trip to malmö, sweden really bring out the wanderlust. now there're many places to go on my mind, and i should start thinking where i wanna go this easter hols.

2010-02-02T07:24:00.002+08:00

went shopping alone today after lessons.. therapeutic. walked all the way to the station and storcenter to get groceries and some necessary things like moisturizer. basic things are expensive, wished i had brought more stuff along, so i won't need to spend so much here.

there should be an iceland trip coming up yay! randomly found out that this new friend is into iceland like me! hmm she called along some guys so we'll slowly see what's coming up. what both of us have in mind is 2 iceland trips, 1 winter trip and 1 summer trip. really looking forward to this. there's some inertia in starting the planning but i'll overcome it i assume. the feb trip to london and this weekend trip to sweden is confirmed.

printing in dtu is FREE. i recently found out why: there are so so many readings to be done, much worse than ntu. all courses exchange students taking are at masters level.. i find it chim.

i've been wanting to get this book by haruki murakami ever since a danish friend talked to me about it. i've some items which i wanna ship it from home to here, but i guess its cheaper to make do without them. stuff like cny cookies. the most singaporean item i have is a small piece of bak kwa. random things i see reminds me of sg food. there's finally a rice cooker in the kitchen. so relieved.

first lesson was okay, did not do any reading prior to the lecture, so couldn't catch everything. stoned (with joann), looked at the sky outside, tried finding hot danish guys lol.

2010-01-31T04:21:00.002+08:00

a little homesick now :(

wonder how's everybody doing back in sg..

it was about -8 today. freezing in the hands and toes, to the point of feeling acute pain the whole time. legs were not warm enough with just 2 layers. copenhagen shopping today with joann and got some jackets. zara is cheaper while h&m is quite trashy.

quite amazed at how many friends i have on fb. thought of the present friends i already have. even with so many new friends, i miss the old bunch. htht all those things :|

and i had more beer than water on most days. or i drink very little water. weird but water is hard to find. i just saw a bottle of mineral water costs 18kr and u need to divide by 3.68 to get sgd. beer is cheaper in a bad way.

lots of weird little things i've thought of but i shall type it tomorrow. din sleep the whole night yesterday.

2010-01-26T05:26:00.002+08:00

blog been's rather quiet i realized. anyway the photos on fb has been doing the talking on how life's been so far here in denmark like our trip to kronborg castle. basically here you're on your own. luckily i have joann with me, the first few days was terrible, terribly cold, lonely and bored. it definitely got better. more people arrived, knew more people (container mates & people from the kampsax and kitchen parties), more bread, more chocolate cookies, tastier dinner, more happy furniture in the room. so life's better now :)

the container got more international today. right now there's a healthy mix from lebanon, poland, spain, romania, turkey, mexico, korea and singapore! i wonder who's going to be the last container mate. i hope its a jap or korean guy haha.

i had quite a culture shock during the kitchen party. the kampsax party was gd, nice pasta, dined together and talked among ourselves (i dared not talked to the ang moh boys and the tally jap guy), played table soccer. this time round a lot of us inside a tiny kitchen, hanging tgt, drinking beer and wine, and talking. after joann left, i was the only asian around and got a little afraid. however the people were really friendly, they'll approach you and start conversations so naturally. 3 hours later, i have spoken to a swedish, romanian, danish and another guy. though i can't remember their names, i sure remember their faces. so it was quite an amazing experience. and later at night, the romanians start dancing to the loud romanian music that was interrupting our conversations throughout (:x), and they danced in a neat synchronized fashion. stunned. its like their mambo. (a romanian told me that the highlight of romanian weddings is the dancing), the only one i recognized was the numa numa song. after a while the smoking really got into my eyes, excused myself and went back to my room and sleep.

sunday was rather boring, pious joann went to church with a hongkee and i had no one to hang out with. so i walked to the train station to get cheaper groceries. met weihong along the way who was cycling madly back to dtu to pack his luggage and catch his plane. sadly the super cheap bread ($1.60 for 20 slices) was sold out, so i went on a cookie spree and got myself 7 packets of chocolate cookies ($2.80x7), the cheapest and best around. even better than subway or chipsmore. walked to the campus store and the same bread was sold out. wah so sian i just want to eat bread and i just don't want to get the expensive one. so in the end i did not get anything.

monday was better. went to ikea!!!!!! got more furniture. if there's one thing which i will really spend on besides food that will only be furniture. got myself a round cream carpet which i gian very very long already since hall days, a doormat cos the melting snow is irritating me, tupperwares to put the chocolate cookies, scented candles to nullify the smelly socks, an ocean blue towel, clothes basket.. thanks to yanli who told me to apply for membership card and i saved $25!! anyway i bought the big bag which dad gave and i always use it as a shopping bag. saved $ again. everything here needs money. plastic bags need $. you buy beer the aluminium cans need extra $. u need to return the cans to get back the $. the parties which i contributed beer never get back the cans :( haiyah give and take. think my bad habit is acting up again. ever since i got a mini broom i have been sweeping the floor every now and then.

been adjusting to the crazy weather well. right now i can walk to other containers in just flip flops and 2 layers. however i've heard next week is gonna be -10. that's really crazy.

i had ikea meatballs for lunch. i got myself the 15 meatball set (~$8) while joann and lara got 10. haha thats me and its really filling. the meatballs comes with jam, and whipped potato. so so delicious. at the end of the shopping we bought more meatballs and da pao back. at night i cooked pasta, together with the meatballs in tomato sauce. hahaha so proud of myself cos it was great haha! invited my new korean mate to join us. a happy meal indeed!

anyway it's quite troublesome every morning. the need to moisturize. need to put gao gao everytime before you go out. and wearing clothes too. need to wear so many layers. the thick clothing made walking quite stiff. and my ears get frozen all the time.

in case if you been wondering why i bothered to explain my days in extreme detail is that i've been really bored at night, no one is on msn at 4-7a.m. and there's nothing to do as of yet.

tomorrow is introduction week. time to meet more people!

2010-01-21T07:04:00.002+08:00

its hard to imagine that i'm almost 10,000km away from home. it felt like i've been sitting inside a jerky dark box for 13 hours and i suddenly see snow when i came out. the journey to dtu was quite tiring for me, with 2 backpacks and 2 luggages, probably 60+ kg in total. from lyngby stn we took a cab to the university, and got lost for about 30min, carrying all our belongings around the campus and asking for directions to the accom office. luckily we bumped into weihong and he showed us the way to our containers. i wld say its kind of cool. something very different. made friends with a healthy mix of international students. went to the resident supermarket and bumped into yanli and her friend in the evening. whole day was pretty much spent on unpacking, cleaning the room, buying stuff to cook. couldn't really sleep, the heater made the room super warm. woke up quite a few times. in the morning i finally saw falling snow, and noticed snowflakes. tried to build a snowman, but halfway cos our hands n legs turned too numb. went downtown through the snow and wind for about 30 mins. seriously cold, but bearable. the locals are really friendly though. we caught little sch kids having a snow fight. saw lots of nice houses and architecture too. sadly hands too numb to bring out my cam and all i wanna do is stuff my hands into my coat till i reached the mall. finally got myself proper boots, prepaid card and somemore decent groceries. the gloomy skies could get u feeling depressed but the snowy environment is seriously pretty.

2010-01-17T16:24:00.004+08:00

had a farewell bbq at ecp last night. well it was meant to be a surprise but i somehow knew it before it. totally enjoyed myself and really enjoyed seeing everyone bothered to come, meeting up and catching up. those who can't make it, i know its the effort of trying to come but cmi that counts. the gifts and cards are really thoughtful and nice. thanks to my family as well, bbqing non stop and my dear ba wang sister for paying for almost everything. the time spent was short but sweet yay! and finally another plane trip

2009-12-30T01:44:00.005+08:00

improved by 0.01 to 4.50. i seem to have some affinity with '0.01' , like losing to the faster runner by 0.01s during nationals. anw difficult subjects which people can da bao i got A+/A. then that easy subject which u have to memorise facts and exam will have recycled pyp questions like challenges of the karang guni man i got B. seriously after receiving so many exam results, i was stunned for the first time, like the opposite works for me. anyway a small improvement still counts. i'll just have to work harder to get 4.51, (if i still bother about grades.) this results issue seem to bother me this sem, ever since my horrible experiences at IO tells me what an env engineer's life is all about, i tell myself i never wanna be an engineer anymore. i wish i have an idea now, maybe i'll find it in denmark.

2009-12-29T00:29:00.006+08:00

2009 is coming to an end :| i wonder what 2010 will bring. probably more natural disasters and drastic climate changes, and we need actions - laws, caps and more goodwill. what we can do... i can really make an essay out of this, but i hope in the coming year everyone will get to see the light and start doing their part.

for the first time, i'm nuah beyond hope. i don't know what i'm busy with. i really need to start finishing packing, and get things moving. urghhhhhhh. honestly, i would say i do still feel kind of overworked from the semester. or maybe this is a perfect excuse, since i've been extremely hardworking. guess i have to get over this jaded feeling now. waking up everyday knowing u have lots of things to do, but finding no energy to do it, lest going out or out with friends sucks. at least i've met almost everyone whom i wanna meet. damn i have so many things on my mind but i can't find the right words to type/express it out. its like feeling overloaded with nothing i suppose.

2009-12-05T02:01:00.002+08:00

it's time to get a life! this semester feels particularly fast and slow. anything and everything that happened before the semester starts feels like a long time ago, yet the feelings vividly remain. so it's a fast and slow semester to get through. and taking 7 papers had been the most draining experience so far. imagine doing some hardcore studying every single day for exams ever since the end of october till now. time to chill !

2009-12-02T01:06:00.005+08:00

the lyrics, vibes, super gd dance (and singing not too bad) makes me go high while studying.. not forgetting the sorry song.. wah seh i love the dance

2009-11-26T13:47:00.007+08:00

3/7. the road feels long. keep going and hang on! structures was o-k, unsure of all my answers. looking at simple trusses/structures/frames everywhere just reminds me of mechanics of materials. now, simply looking at columns, slabs, beams makes me feel so engineer-ish.

mugger machine has been running and is running..

.:.

happy birthday dear sister, hope u'll get to do volcanoes one day.

.:.

some videos i saw on youtube lately:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9OWFI4_Q8Wk :]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d-wN5-NvC8g :o

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QFCSXr6qnv4 :|

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x6QA3m58DQw :D

& i'm going to get these after my exams: miniature patisserie

http://aiclay.blogspot.com/

2009-11-21T16:32:00.004+08:00

come to think of it, i have been studying almost every single day ever since school started, and i will be studying all the way until 4th dec. solid waste paper was not very good, there are loads of weird questions.. did manage to crap out some answers, but it might not turn out well. i try not to think about getting back my 4.5, lest it stresses me more. but everyone in ene this sem is particularly hardworking, so i guess better grades are harder to get now. all the best! tentatively i might be leaving sg around mid-end jan.. time to start preparing my visa

2009-11-09T23:53:00.000+08:00

2009-11-09T01:38:00.003+08:00

a random person dreamt of me crying. do i look that sad? i'm not sad! i'm just feeling super crappy, kind of stressed and suffocated these days. exam stress :| typical. and i totally got a shock on friday: dad had a minor eye op! he din tell us cos we're busy mugging for quizzes and exams. feel kind of useless to be so holed up due to exams. thinking abt exchange is a gd way to destress a little, and of cos some things will be put to the test during then. old rose said "A woman’s heart is a deep ocean of secrets."

2009-11-05T01:08:00.003+08:00

just had 3 quizzes for the past 3 days. drained to the max. usually i won't feel sian so fast. left one more quiz next thurs. as much as i was feeling homesick after not going back home last week, i'm loving hall more and more, and thanks to my roomies :) whom i can really really talk to about everything, giving every day some closure before i sleep. gotta start finding back the drive after not having a productive day. and school has not been kind.. not wanting to meet the some people, and then just appear. and the weather around asia has been terribly gloomy. philippines and vietnam hit by typhoons. gloooomy. hope that the relief efforts are coping well. i've decided to start swimming!

2009-10-09T22:54:00.003+08:00

while i spent my week getting engrossed in school work, getting messed up when it comes to dwelling into hopeless possibilities all over again..

everything outside seem even more messed up than myself. there were earthquakes, storms.. with millions in a more unfortunate predicament. made a donation to the red cross ytd, hope that at least a little good will come out of it for the disaster victims. probably i'll head towards humanitarian or animal relief work someday, maybe. i kind of hope i can help baby leatherback turtles.

can't believe i'm been dwelling in useless thoughts all this time, after moving on (declaration: yes, moved on.) but moving on in a wrong direction, i think

anyway, the mugger spirit in me hope that i can start pyp next week. and then i recalled my coursmates have already started discussing questions. ene virus

2009-10-03T22:25:00.001+08:00

after waiting for 6 months, DTU emailed me, to say that i'm accepted as an exchange student for Spring 2010. email account next year s094239@student.dtu.dk. now there's something to keep me smiling all day, run away from sg and away from all the silly thoughts in my mind! got to start planning: plane tix, date, living, some financial planning, places to go. there're lots of things i wanna do, like backpacking round europe, drink some cold beer in giant mugs of volume >1.325l, go see icebergs, whales, try winter sports, extreme sports, take part in humanitarian work, save wild animals etc. hopefully i can get to do such things which i can never never accomplish in sg.

2009-10-01T23:14:00.002+08:00

i'm back at mt ermei to cultivate the study qi.. free from all distractions in the mortal realm. hohoho. but still unable to escape one lust - the lust for shopping! not the spend money feeling ah but cos i've been wanting to get something. recess week is ending. so sad! i haven't study finish, and play enough. one night at prog chalet is not enough!

2009-09-22T00:04:00.002+08:00

school life has been quite happening. first there was sports ball. was totally overhyped, but much toned down in terms of the alcohol, nonetheless people still get drunk and i spent much time clearing up drunk people like thomas if there's a big4 to describe it. there was bailey-smell puke and piles here and there. hotel rooms in the end became totally crowded with drunk people and ok people still active. went to htht with yuqi, felt better to clear all the useless and confusing thoughts in my head, became tired at around 7+ so i slpt at the lift lobby. and yes shangri'la is still very cui. but sentosa is good. went bumming around with some other outings and events. finally had bak chor mee ah baling etc at bedok blk 85, celebrated christie's and jeremy's bday at allan's secret hideout, went for prog recruitment drive, celebrated yingli's bday and went for kent's comms ball. more happy memories for me to forget about studies haha. luckily hydraulics quiz went well i think. comms ball at st regis was totally super classy and grand. much better than ritz carlton. i'll never forget the ballroom decor. and i think it would be every girls' dream come true to have her wedding there. and the urge to do skydiving has never been stronger. wahaha

2009-09-04T19:17:00.002+08:00

got B- for IO, the reason i could think of is that i dunno how to please my bosses and be whoever according to what they expect, so as to fulfil their criteria of a good employee, despite getting work done. got quite upset over the grade, and what's worse the cGPA got demoted to a second upper. i thought my performance would suffice for a B, partly due to some lack of interest in work, partly due to sports camp stuff. i won't blame those external commitments. anyway, all i can say is i super hate office politics and all the pretentious fronts. to the max.

i'll just study harder, not just for the stupid sake of my cGPA, but also as a testament to the growth in depth inside me.

just super sianed. drank ytd, got totally gone. really have to thank them for being there whenever i'm down. as its really from the heart.

argh just sianed... super moody mode.

2009-09-01T17:56:00.001+08:00

feels like week 8 of school now. hardly coping any better.

2009-08-30T12:30:00.003+08:00

had much more time for myself and my friends, cousins, family. i realised how much (somehow) i had neglected them. my fault for being involved in other things which i thought was important, be it studies or relationship. i've learnt to have my dinner slower, to enjoy laughs/talks with whoever i was eating with; enjoy walking with friends in school, blah blah blah.. i did used to do such things, but i think i appreciate them better now, probably with a mind less preoccupied..

anw i feel very girly once again. i went shopping on my own.. and for the record i think i enjoy shopping when i know what to buy and where to get it and knowing that it was necessary, and hate wandering around looking for things to buy. plus people i shop with have to be gd girlfriends or family. so i got myself new shorts, and a pair of black heels for ball. dunno y the black heels make me feel quite happy for the rest of the day! quite childish i think..

anw i dunno when i'll be free to make a trip down to the east to get alan's fridge. but the thought of having chilled coffee, beer, milk and green tea inside makes me feel angry at myself for being so nuah..

nuahssss

getting slightly curious, i wonder who are the audiences for this blog.

2009-08-25T22:09:00.002+08:00

these 2 weeks has been rather eventful.. sometimes busy at nights, can sleep at 5 plus or leave hall at midnight.. anw i still enjoy hall life so far! get to cohabit with my dear sister and 2 other cousins.. so i feel very at home all the time. yay!

also feeling quite sad that i'm leaving progs. hai hai hai

2009-08-12T20:54:00.003+08:00

getting used to my hall 15 life.. apparently the bed is too comfortable till i wake up late 2 days straight.. in the end i missed a lecture today. anw i'll start studying hard this week! no more excuses :) and lectures are boring, and notes as useless as before.

.:.

2009-08-09T18:25:00.006+08:00

argh school is starting. feeling nuah.. got to start studying, getting stressed, less play. got my chance to squatter once again, now at hall 15. nuah to e max.. my week after sports camp was very much spent on sleeping. slpt about 12 hours almost everyday.

more time to stone and think, about anything or maybe nothing for now..

单身万岁 yeah man.

2009-08-05T14:07:00.002+08:00

back from sports camp! seriously mentally and physically straining for me, even though i'm not a freshie anymore. still challenging to run a camp with my fellow progs and other 'backstage' people such as the log and welfare people. in total i think i had less than 12 hours of sleep for that 7 days. thankfully the weather was good and sea ex sea sports went smoothly (generally)! this yr's cohort seem more closely knitted? maybe its because of many freshies getting fever. and i'm practically a station master for every games event, or at least a controller. think every prog should know why lah.. last but not least, i got to observe or at least see almost everyone in camp having fun, so mission accomplished! all photos up on fb :)

2009-07-24T23:51:00.003+08:00

been a busy week so far. staying up late, reaching home late, waking up late, doing lots of things. like going to indoor stadium to see kobe (for free :) and gg for tp walk thru.. camp is next week, and there are still things unsettled. hmmm worrying. time to finish everything, and try to swim more. everything happy starts from gd food and drinks and friends..

2009-07-20T00:12:00.002+08:00

talked and ate a lot today, let everything unhappy out. i'm glad i found another good cup of quality coffee to chill out with.

tmr is gm day. somehow i guess it wouldn't be full attendance. anyway i'm proud that ahay about 90% full attendance 99% of the time. ahay!

time to be uptight!!

2009-07-18T00:16:00.003+08:00

i feel a few good years older after talking to jacq and jenny. argh i feel so much better. they're like a cup of really gd quality coffee.

wow i totally BTH that kind of work attitudes. guess i'll be super recluse at work/guarded.. no point bitching around here. but yeah people do lose themselves, do things which i see no logic in till now..

anyway, this week(s) has been quite crazy.

breakup
heartbroken like siao
crossers
long GM
got drunk (with reliable friends ard) [shh]
'saw through' human nature @ work
talk non-stop for 2hrs
became gd friends

thanks to everyone who's been part of this events.

i think the mambo spirit in me has awaken LOL

2009-07-14T14:41:00.003+08:00

treat myself to an off-day today, with another $26 gone to see a doctor. prog gm ended at 3+ a.m. for the record, plus videoing and supper, we reached andy's around 6 a.m. for spn stuff. ahay! beginning to feel more alone, more time to think through life amist of the hectic life right now, more at peace. enjoying seeing the room turning orange due the afternoon sunrays.. hopefully sea ex goes smoothly somehow, we'll manage and pull through. and for oc and spn as well. ahay! \/ /\

and finally i'm getting worried about the studies. is first class as important as what i've believed in it? or its just some self-created aim to indulge myself in? doing IO makes me realise generally it just means a higher starting pay or accelerated promotions? i dunno, but it seems like its just like a head start in a never-ending mad race. that's just the most general case. neverless i'm still worried, not stressed, but a bit lost. i'll just do a nice intern report and hope the grades will suffice for an A-. i'm sure i got a lousy appraisal from the bosses.

2009-07-12T23:24:00.004+08:00

met up with zzz, lingx and emily on a happy friday after work. really happy to see zzz again.. this reunion reminds me of the gd old days back in school. we dined at this new restaurant called mof at suntec. hmm the only good thing about the place is that the green tea pot is never empty. talked about everything, and now i'm itching to go on a holiday to aus after exams. do sky diving!!!!!!!! road trips and snorkeling and the beach! we'll do this together some day :)

i was in a dreamy state on the whole saturday, possibly due to work fatigue. sunday was spent on warming up to my report and rushing meetings, and the good food made me happier.

BUSY!

2009-07-10T00:15:00.005+08:00

ice cream on 070709! looking forward to our next drinking session.

i have been thinking what to do after i graduate. i don't really lust after the thought of being an engineer after seeing how's everything like at work. so did i make the right choice? i still think so. hopefully i'm smart enough to be able to do something unconventional. i have many weird thoughts in my head. stuff like diving, corals, photography, sharks, icebergs, whales, campaigning, eco-friendly, airlines, coffee cafe, interior design.

cool stuff at www.echinoblog.blogspot.com

2009-07-06T00:25:00.002+08:00

it was 4 years, 2 months and 26 days. (assuming 1 month has 31 days)

it was hard but the best decision. hopefully we'll have another go when we're older.

anw back to my troubling internship(t) report....

2009-06-26T23:57:00.003+08:00

this week at work concluded with a trip to labrador park, and down right to where the seagrasses and corals are. we put on aquaboots and explored around the intertidal zone. hmm photos i'm too lazy to upload as blogger's photo u/l fn quite bad. anywaywe saw seagrasses, corals, a baby hairy crab, and sea grapes! quite amazing to see such marine life despite all the construction work going around the area, but cyrene reefs definitely much better than here.. see if got chance to go before IO ends.. i've already indicated my interest.. anyway can't help but feeling negative over everything, pms? but got 1 super sad news today, not about the king of pop's death, but an article about sharks facing extinction.. species like the great white, blue, mako, thresher, whale, hammerhead, and maybe tiger sharks are going extinct, thanks to our appetites. looks like my wish to be surrounded my great whites and watching them in a cage right in the ocean will remain unfulfilled. also another saddening news is that pro-whaling countries are appealing to some international whaling commission to increase their quotas. marine creatures are seriously going extinct. i'm still super super lag in terms of log bk.. only completed 1 entry, and submission for report is nearing, and i've not started anything. the nuah monster go fly away!

2009-06-24T23:20:00.000+08:00

just catch Transformers: revenge of the fallen. one of my favorite movies of all time, after armageddon, pearl habor, transformers, ip man, protege, invisible target, and daisy. and all of my fav hollywood shows are directed by michael bay. super super super nice... and i'm very tired

2009-06-16T00:01:00.005+08:00

boss not at work today so i spent the day trying to do something useful and try to act busy-then-feel-tired-then-sleep-unknowingly. dared not do sport camp stuff under the eyes of the other fellow interns and office ppl. the interns here are too hardworking.. i feel kind of guarded against such stuff and i shall try to avoid any office or intern politics. or in a way i feel that i can't be myself at work. the small yuan wangs i've gone through.. by the way if i could i would have read nat geog all day, which is stuck in my bag. and i couldn't find the interest to start doing logbk. and i have a lot to whine!!!! night times are just not enough for me....... there is no time to do other things! and i feel so sleepy and nuah all the time. can't find the motivation to run or swim or pack my things or bring dogs out for a walk..... i've been demoted to a boring and lifeless human.. everyday work come home eat wash dog poo wash floor maybe sweep a bit of floor and bathe and sleep... haiiiii i don't wanna live this kind of life when i work next time. i guess job satisfaction plays a BIG role in my future occupation. i hope mon and dad strike 4D! argh i pity my jaded life. moody to the max! and if u're thinking maybe this month it's time for the auntie to visit u then u're wrong!~ :

maybe everything starts from the lack of happy food to eat everyday and also my fav pokka green tea or milk tea.... humph..

2009-06-13T21:24:00.004+08:00

ahh the weather became cooler. finally. i guess its really climate change happening right here at srg gdns. about half of the holidays is gone.. so sian.. and i should work harder at sea ex sea sports! and not forget to do io stuff too... :|

ahh life feels mundane somehow

2009-06-04T22:02:00.004+08:00

finally work is getting less busy. have been staring at the computer for the past week doing excel and autocad. see until i go blur. took time to surf about singapore's marine community, particularly near our reclamation site. cyrene reefs (just beside jurong island) is super amazing la and my internship project is all about helping to protect them. check this out: http://wondercreation.blogspot.com/search/label/cyrene%20reef . this guy arh.. apart from saying god here god there.. he has good photography skills! planning to ask permission and cite few of their photos for my log book and report.

i bought a white chocolate macademia nut cookie to work today. eating it makes me feel happy all the way till lunch. office lifestyle is quite interesting here. apart from all the lame jokes during lunch, we celebrate birthdays almost every other week. today's one is for the june babies and luckily they din know about mine bday. i think i'm quite uptight and serious in front of them all the time, but the truth is i'm tired all the time...

here is my fav picture - a baby cushion sea star where its arms are not fully developed yet. the intricate pattern resemble the map of the whole universe personally, like u can imagine the black parts as black holes and the yellow parts as mess of galaxy clusters. anw do u know there's no such thing as star fishs? scientifically they are known as sea stars. and today i found out there are knobbly, cushion and even biscuit sea stars! the mention of biscuit sea star makes me feel like eating a sea star shaped biscuit. but anyway its not too hard to differentiate them in general. like this cushion sea star looks like a cushion for u to sit on..

shall not upload more of the blog's pictures in case people sue me. and i hope i could make a living out of studying the marine environment.. :))

2009-06-03T00:15:00.002+08:00

wah i'm 21.. and in few years time i'll be working and soon i'll hit 30, then 40 then 50... but i feel 17 still..... even on the bday party. i have few regrets for the party... should have gotten more fans, and i forgot to take photos with my dogs! and i forgot to adjust the camera mode... and i forgot to put on earrings... and i should have taken more photos!! but still very happy that many many relatives and friends came. to be honest i've decided to call up closer friends instead of plainly friends.. like that the numbers would have hit 100 from deyi, vj and ntu. the best thing i got that day was being happy every single minute and seeing everyone happy (but cursing the weather silently). we should have had a bikini party hor.. then use the hose to spray everyone.. dunno who say one arh... quite amazed at the presents received.. what i liked best so far is the nat geog book and the turtle cert :) meimei's bf gave me some 501 island book. wah so so so so damn cool lah! i'm very motivated to start saving for traveling to the artic and caribbean islands. and mom gave me her 21st bday key in angpao... so sweet! i must continue her tradition and give my 2 21st keys to my future children haha. if i have more than 2 kids then the key go duplicate lor! wahahhaha

2009-05-24T22:08:00.002+08:00

dad and sis are back from their NZ holiday! the best thing i heard was flying on a helicopter over geysers, mud pools; and CRATERS! cool i wanna do that too. they did jetboating at queenstown, nz. i said i also go queenstown everyday (for work) how come nv see them har. k lame.... not so gd thing is having nothing to do at night and some days i heard. there no night life

weekends are spent on sleeping and attending emily's 21st and helping out x-physique. no time to start on io log book and prog stuff.... exam results out liao. it was kind of cui-est to date but surprising i wasn't sad. apart from not doing my best.. it was really tough this sem. just ask any ene student. :(

going to be another busy week at reclamation site digging out the sand together with the blanga workers. shortage of manpower suddenly... dunno y am i doing this!? going to have monstrous arms soon

U BELIEVE ARH?! HAHAHHAHAA

2009-05-17T22:25:00.015+08:00

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dear all

here are the details for rox's 21st birthday gathering

on turning 21:

i just wanna make use of this occasion to have a family and friends gathering at my messy place. no theme, so appearing in something casual will do. u may like to bring some chilled beer for me too!

date:

30 may 2009, Saturday

venue:

15 hythe road S(557496) [see map below for the bus-then-walk route]

time:

7pm till late (late night activities are welcomed! u can stay overnight after supper)

directions/buses:

- to serangoon gardens circle, beside chomp chomp food centre

buses: 317, 315, 136, 73,

- to ang mo kio ave 3, outside daikin sg and gain city

buses: 25, 73, 74, 76, 132, 165, 55

ideas for a birthday gift:

nothing really. i would really appreciate if the amount spent on a present would be instead used in making a personal donation to these organizations, whose causes and actions are what which i strongly believe in. this is just my personal opinion, :)

1. World Wide Fund for nature (WWF)

http://www.panda.org/who_we_are/wwf_offices/singapore/how_you_can_help/individual/

http://www.panda.org/who_we_are/wwf_offices/singapore/how_you_can_help/business/

2. National Geographic Society

http://www.nationalgeographic.com/donate/

invitation is only via notification by me only. friends, pls let me know if u can make it or not. see you there!

2009-05-09T02:40:00.003+08:00

went to mouth restaurant to celebrate dad's bday in advance after work. here are some photos! lorraine jiejie is into her 6th month. have to help to start thinking of baby's name le!! after a very happy and delicious dinner with lots of laughter coming from the aunts and uncles, went to meet up house commers for a short while and then brewerkx for mom dad and sis. happening evening!

hai sometimes i really wish bachelors in marine biology or oceanography existed in sg....

anw.... i haven't started planning for bday.... but if U really want to give me a bday present, pls donate the $ to buy present to WWF (World Wide Fund for Nature). to me that would be the best. cos proceeds will go into wildlife conservation programmes, education programmes and more. alternatively humph, u could get me a book on photography, oceans, space and natural landscapes from the official Nat Geog shop at vivocity. the latter is (very much) more expensive, but proceeds will go to Nat Geog Society somehow. i love books!

hai i hope my aunts won't get me diamonds. hai can a bday plan just drop down from the sky and save me from all the headache!?

i'm starting to like my IO environment a lot, but as a career i'ld have to give a second thought. it hasn't given me the feeling that i'll get a sense of accomplishment from being involved in the job.

hopefully i can still go to denmark. why they haven't email me!~!~!!!~!~!~!~~~~~~!~!!~!~

2009-05-05T23:30:00.005+08:00

exams had ended and i don't feel particularly ecstatic.... like another wave of stress and erm responsibilities coming in. and exams haven't been going fine, by what people something like "cui cos cannot get A or A- right?" the answer is yeah, though i won't say it upfront.. i guess many of my schoolmates can't accept this mentality. perhaps this time i may get worse than B. thanks to processes and eid. so bye 4.5+.. i'll get u back next sem.

anw.. retreat was fun! i was feeling quite anti-social on friday morning, later which i think its because of pms. just feeling very nuah and lazy, even to open my mouth.. like just want to hibernate and have minimal movement, even if it means to turn my head or talk.. anyway..... it does feel great to see everyone again so happily together.. even though sometimes i felt irritated by all the noise and 'childish' stuff going on. like what i said, got this anti-social mode on. so half irritated half happy. there was a mad jam at tuas such that we reached afamosa before dinner.. so long lah, but i was sleeping most of the time i wasn't quite affected. buffet dinner was good so i felt happier. back at villa nuah a bit then go to sleep le, not much of a mood to play around. slpt with suihui lol. next day we had paintball! this time i kenna 1 shot in the neck and another round at the back. the bruise at the back quite bad.. but i wont show my very sexy back even to anyone lol. i quite like watching the progs playing paintball more than playing it. the best part of the retreat lasted for the afternoon and we went to cowboy town for dinner. oh before that we went to animal world for lunch. funny thing is we must pay for admission to go eat our already paid meals. so senseless la, pls don't ever go to this place! thinking of the chained elephant, tiger cubs and lionesses makes me sad even now.. i think all wild animals should have remained in their natural habitat.. we don't have and shall never entertain the thought to tame or chain them up for us to manipulate.. hai if i can i will definitely change this. anyway, all meals are good so i'm got happier. at night we stayed at cowboy town to play rodeo.. i was watching throughout. mavis and elvin was really good. anw cheap thrillss. nothing significant happened later.. i lightened up for the rest of the journey. on our way back, i bought 4 packets of fish muruku!!!! so happy!!!

work next day. went to their headquaters for admin stuff and the driver drove me and a yr 3 CEE girl to the container site office/reclamation site. the office environment was pleasant.. totally don't have the office politics feeling. everyone had their own role to play and nothing to snatch or fight, at least according to what i see. quite heartening to know many graduate from ntu, even the bosses. quite entertaining to see them talk about their hall or school life. anyway, my first 2 days are quite slack as the upperstudy have not finished her IA stint and the engineers are busy. coolest thing was we had site visit! entire site visit. air/sea/land. now i know this big project is very messy and confusing. so many different roles and people involved in this super expensive project. my role seems quite easy now. horrors of env processes revisited.. TSS, DO, secchi depth etc etc. can't reveal much here. anw i'm looking forward to work!

watching this hk drama called 'catch me now' and reading eclipse. heaven!

hope eid exhibition goes well on thursday.. and i hope mom will strike 4D is mothers day present and instep faster email me about the application status.

this is the nerdy intern miss tan. 8)

2009-04-26T00:00:00.000+08:00

hahhh one more paper. and i finally have pimples after staying for so long in hall. must be the weather and exam stress :|

2009-04-22T22:23:00.002+08:00

one more paper!!~ i know i haven't done well for the past 5 papers. argh

2009-04-14T00:00:00.003+08:00

brr.. exams are here. i've been quite whiny with myself, letting out very loud whines in hall when roomie is not around, but i felt better though. also, been treating myself to watching online dramas and movie parts to get away from the boredom of studying. well.. i have the concepts and finished the pyp for 2 necessary subjects. bio just understand, hydro just leave it to the last 4 days to do everything and processes just revise tutorials and prepare cheat sheet. hah getting very used to exams now.

anyway, 4 yrs has passed! look at my amazing piece of work. seriously, we have so little photos. probably less than 30 with both of us inside. that's why i took pretty fast to select the photos.

.:.

all the best to everyone having exams (smu, ntu, nus, melb uni), JIA YOU to myself!

2009-04-02T22:47:00.002+08:00

exams are coming, in less than 2 weeks. have yet to start and finish the last topic of some subjects, and just finished the second last topic, both of some importance to Q4 of the papers. exams have isolated me from the world. current world news, home news, friend news, personal space, what i like to do.. totally cut off. hopefully everything will end nicely on 27th april.. then play!~

2009-03-31T22:06:00.002+08:00

watching too many dramas already.. haven't started my revision at all! humph gonna read thru all and start tmr. i mean it!!! "RARRRRH" too many 'inner sakura' moments haha.

jia lat, how come i have gotten so slack? should have started all these 2 weeks ago. hmm time to forgo my sleep!!~!~ no time to regret!

2009-03-20T00:06:00.002+08:00

extended library opening hours is scaring me.

and weekends aren't exactly time for me to catch up with studies.. 21st bday parties and gatherings, like deyi npcc annual campfire last weekend.

if u have 22 hours to waste, can try watching boys before flowers, korean version. best drama!

overslpt for the 2nd time in 2 weeks. missed 2 hours of lesson. :(

and i'm officially starting work on 4th may yay! even though the pay is peanuts.. at least i'm on my way to earning to fulfil my holiday plans and my exchange fund.

2009-03-14T18:06:00.002+08:00

i wonder how uni life have changed me.. become quieter (to some), reserved (maybe because i'm tired all the time?), less enthu (because this is it?) or more isolated (because i start enjoying my own company?)? dwelling in boring thoughts at home...

anyway it's real nice to be back home! anyway boys before flowers rocks la.. its a korean version of F4... 2 of them are so hot hot hot. esp when one of them wear his shirt.. ys was slightly annoyed when i replay the scene lol. wah anw they are hot stuff. its really a good distraction from all the rush at sch. i plan to watch finish before the exams, hopefully i will still manage to finish my work.. gd luck to me :)

2009-03-12T00:21:00.002+08:00

finally a company wants me! unknowingly, perhaps due to the tiredness accumulating over the week(s) and relief.. suddenly become quite nuah... but must get back to work! and some have told me tt i'm looking quite pale? hmm i should go buy fruit juice to drink everyday le

2009-03-11T01:45:00.004+08:00

there's a lot to do however i do things quite slowly..

i took almost 2 hours to draft an email for sports camp stuff.
i took the remaining night doing 4 structures questions
i slpt at 2am! and i started these stuff at 5 plus?
the rest of the i must be eating or making hot water for my coffee or stoning...

yups 1 night do so little things! i should try to increase my productivity..

anyway, i was so happy nat geog was finally delivered to my place after 3 months! got some subscription renewal so there was delay. nonetheless it kind of cheered me up .. instead of new dresses or heels or makeup lol. i hope to have more time to read it this weekend!!!!!y!!

last saturday was spend outside.. gg back to look for mr seet regarding camp stuff, recce and a bday celebration for my sec 2 friend. lots of us turn up.. as usual there was lots of army talk since the poly guys enter and the jc guys ord. think i was so tired by the end of the day i wasn't my usual self talking to them.. but i still enjoyed their company. i dunno y but their cigarette doesn't smell as irritating as others and stuff like that. prob cos we've known each other for 8 yrs :)

sunday was spent sleeping and studying. i did the stupid concrete report qns for the whole aftnoon, almost. quite irritated to do this cos its not even formal lab report yet there's so many qns to answer.. plus we ene have zero knowledge in concete. quite senseless. GTA (lol) came over to do his teaching stuff. i think to date we really spend more time studying/working together than playing. quite sian to realise this lol.

finally meimei treat us to pow sing chicken at gdns. we keep saying we wan small for all dishes but the waiter keep suggesting we up size to med. so we ok, in the end also a bit too much plus the ingredients quite cheapo.. nice to eat but i quite sian-ed over their $12 fish maw soup. only got fish maw, fishball and cabbage. dont tell me the fish maw imported from europe or wad.

monday morn woke up early to bathe my dirty dogs and rushed to sch, and continued the mad rush.

mom and dad has been asking me abt the 21st bday thingy.. its so troublesome to organise :/

no company has replied me regarding IO.. i emailed few random companies out of desperation. haizzzz so shitty if i really were to do IA, will i have to pon sports camp and overload like mad when i return in yr4 sem1? the thought scares me! overload like mad.. prob i could start mugging or FYP-ing during IA and straight after i come back from exchange. sports camp stuff.... hmm i dunno how man.

shitty life!

2009-03-06T00:06:00.002+08:00

life's getting shittier....

not as in its so stressful or smth. maybe it's stress. but i guess its being too busy. too many things on my hands.. lots of loose ends which i can't tie up and could only wait.

take for e.g. NEA. i've emailed them almost 3 weeks ago regarding IO stuff, and yet i'm still waiting for their supposed reply on monday, 4 days ago. on prof's recommendation, i emailed a dua diap guy at NEA again and been waiting for 2 days. and today i sent another email back to their hr dept. i'll call up office tmr to see if they can postpone the deadline. gosh i have technically 3 working days. veolia and shell emailed negative responses. tats fine.. but how the remaining those.. hyflux, sembcorp and nparks have yet to reply. hurrr.r.r..r.r

mfa duo fellowship award - hoping to get 4000 euros for free.

denso conference thingy in thailand n japan - hopefully i can get it, either i'll be in school or doing ia. i dont wanna do ia!!!!!

denmark instep - :)

pretty much worrying admin stuff, concerning if i get to waste one sem or not, with the little stuff.

equally worrying is studies. cmbr cmfr and pfr... its so exciting and yet difficult to grasp its concepts. ok this is only 1 subject.

eid....

formal lab report..

programmer event...

family.....

a long lab worksheet with many many chim questions...

weekends are usu gone these weeks... so yup... no time!!

if nea doesn't reply me.. i'll waste a sem doing ia and i'll die in yr 4 overloading yr 3 stuff...! haiz or mayb i'll graduate late by a sem

2009-03-03T00:43:00.004+08:00

courtesy of lingx's: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

true, i dont like to bottle things up, but i may offend.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

true, he's got the qualities.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

duh

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

yep! i believe in studying something that u are passionate in. that's y i never chose business or accountancy. i still want to read up more about history of art, music, marine biology, astrophysics

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

ya i still have many dream jobs, many of which inpractical in our career-driven society

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

not true, i dont care anymore about keeping up with people and cliches. sometimes i'd rather spend quality time alone reading nat geog

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

only with coffee..

just a distraction from mugging. lots of stuff to do still, admin and mugging. sent resume to other companies since nea hasn't replied.

SnS was just another SnS. nothing new, but it would be better with more crossers around, esp szeling.. zzz miss u lots! although more competitors, familiar faces, like in cross country. prizes seem more cui, and the comm too which mixed up the chips timing for the women closed apparently with only 9 competitors. cui right.. or sub comm cui. as usual, it rained in the noon. luckily i left the island before the rain. ponned another prog dinner, but i just felt i had to go home, be it for studies or accompany my family. i just feel more at home while at home. on a side note, i got to save money, not that i'm so so unwilling to spend, but feeling the pinch of spending, even if it wont make me poor after spending $15. just hole myself up at home and be with the rest at home. we had full attendance for dinner and mom got me my fav muah chee from pasar malam.

beginning to enjoy studying slightly more, as it's getting more related to knowing the environment and pollution and stuff. but still, its just more maths and maths. more boring bio in microbiology.

i wonder how to indo guy got the guts to commit suicide. very perplexed. u can just go crazy and stab your prof and then jump down the next moment. one's state of mind can be quite volatile, after seeing it at home. hoping for the best!

2009-02-28T00:28:00.002+08:00

why has life been going so tough on us?

it gets tougher and tougher, little by little, year after year. we'll just have to hang on tigher to each other. :)

2009-02-24T00:39:00.003+08:00

week's been busy so far. there's no time to sit down and stone.. went for camp recces today, they were fun! felt guilty for leaving earlier and ponning an event recce. i just felt i had to go home.

progress with school work is not gd. so far i have finished revising com methods cos it was the easiest. i've got 4 more subjects to revise plus eid and camp stuff and read up on lab report and recces to attend and gathering to go too. so this week is gone.

anw went to catch benjamin button with ys. i quite like 1 scene when he's cleaning the ship he worked on. the color contrast and setting on the sea against the background just looks very very amazing, just a image coming alive from a oil-painted canvas. and another scene when they watched sunrise or went sailing on the blue waters. so so nice! the entire movie tells u that life and its events is transient. it's like no matter how much facial u do or how much u train at the gym or what, in the end when u old u look like any other ah pek or ah ma. and to treasure every moment with someone u treasure. so to me i feel there is less meaning to waste time being angry with people.

and i finally got new slippers! the happy meter just go up a bit.

zzz lingx and i went vj running again. wah my stamina is so cui! also no stregth to lift up leg. now i just dont want to malu my myself on sunday. i can forget about prizes le. and zzz went back aussie le. i hope her neighborhood wont get bushfire. its quite fun playing with mr tan's kids! i like ordering them around or suaning them. like order them to hug each other, say sorry la.. think i'm going to be an evil mother next time.

so happy meimei is planning on a NZ trip! i hope she will sponsor her poor sister! i wanna go river rafting or smth, go road trips, snorkelling, see turtle lay eggs and climb mountain and lots of nature stuff!

i'm really hoping NEA accepts me as their intern. i'm wanting this more than getting 1st-class.

2009-02-20T16:19:00.002+08:00

finally week 7 and all the horrible tests have come to an end. time to play, but i shall limit it to times with ys and friends, and catching up on tuts and syllabus and more mugging, if not cui when exams come. hai forced mugging.

time to recharge! i wanna buy new slippers cos my only havanas has its rubber base splitting real badly. havanas so lousy de.

real sucky week. happy that its gone! shall mug real hard so i dun have to attend cui lectures anymore.

last but not least.. i just wanna say this, thank u my yeye coffee mix for waking me up everyday for lessons.. if not i'ld be very dead

2009-02-16T23:36:00.002+08:00

considering the control volume rox,

stress = f(e, t, x, mos) where events e = sch + fam = (ex + test + io/ia) + (imh + $).

factor $ can be reduced via feedback system to introduce a variable 'fund' where the rest is not within the control of the control volume rox. basically everything i wanted to say has been reduced to this formula. haha. saved the hassle of typing properly.

2009-02-10T19:03:00.002+08:00

this and next week will be filled with tests (i have completed 2/7..), handling exchange stuff and IO stuff within feb. hopefully someone wants me to be their intern. i wouldn't mind doing if for free. i just need to clear this module...

hai quite packed this week. feeling quite sian about having to go through this... but still oh well.. feeling very whiny.. and also eid project proposal due in march (our group haven't meet up at all and we don't know each other still!), and more troublesome stuff. totally looking forward to recess week.

hai i also hope biao will get better

v day also coming..boo.. no mood.. i'm in a workaholic mood and yet the damn sian mood.. no mood for love, that's bad.. think i need happy food and happy things in my hall to cheer myself up!

2009-02-03T20:04:00.004+08:00

a traumatic week... this week is going to be another worrying one..

firstly, i'm very worried; secondly, it's useless because there's nothing i can do about it; thirdly, it's still worrying even knowing this.

i just can't have peaceful semesters. haaai.. and if in case u don't know what's going on, it's concerning the family.

we made some cement at lab today. really hands-on.. i quite like it cos we all got dirty hands and some shirts after that, makes me feel more man.. HAH

anw what's up with the 25 things on fb?! actually i wanted to make my own list which can be quite private. then my 300+ friends see le i will feel some lack of privacy and probably feel like some degradation of personal thought/space to cheap entertainment for others. but frankly u will know more about your friends too. prob i'll make my list and post it up after exams.

2009-01-31T01:40:00.003+08:00

am TIRED. from trying to understand schwork to thinking.. post-cny blues.. been quite busy such that the only leisure is sleeping. everyday after lessons i'll go back to hall to sleep before continuing other stuff. boo.. i wanna buy a olive green round carpet, that is if i happen to see one..

i'm really going to hate school. there will be eid, lab report and tests.

really TIRED.. i just wanna slack at home if i could.

TIREDDDD

2009-01-27T22:50:00.008+08:00

happy 牛year..

CNY photos!!! from reunion dinner, to all the visiting and the zi lian phototaking times, playing saboteur and gambling.. for the big small game, the probability of making overall profits is really less than 0.1 as most of us made a small loss.

quite disappointing in some ways.. a more sian atmosphere this yr. i hear more obituaries and know more elder generations are getting older and weaker..

i also realise i dread putting makeup after trying out mascara... till the time when i find it less troublesome i might consider investing into foundation... for the time being i rather buy skin care products.. esp for the eyes! my eyes getting puffier, darker at the circles and more wrinkles.. old liao sooo sad.

haiii time to go back to school and get more eye bags and wrinkles.. a closed-loop positive feedback caged system.

my meimei is starting her shiok job next month at the ulu and polluted jurong island. jia you and dont get bullied horz.. i still waiting for my commision..

2009-01-25T23:19:00.003+08:00

ignore the previous post, kenna hack by my sis.

haha CNY le.. not really into the mood.. but it's always like this every year haha, just looking forward to eating good food and good company. chiong-ed new moon last night till 3am. not really exciting, bella and edward are connected via covalent bonds, and i still don't understand what attracts him to her. but its really a good story, takes u away from the un-adventurous life we're living now.

anw i think when it comes to spending, i really spend.. friday went to amk hub for fun to see if got nice clothes to buy, esp from the box. really heng heng saw some nice clothes and i spent abt 66 on 2 pieces. i can be quite stingy about really really mundane stuff all the time like saving 10 cents to make myself happy, but when it comes to unexpectedly finding stuff i like, just spend lor.. i think because they have such good customers then they can survive the downturn, their clothes somemore more expensive lah. a bit bu shuang... but the designer quite good, their clothes are baggy generally with simple prints.. i like the thin stripes and polka dots pattern most!! got this shop that sells all the arty stuff at PS.. opened by the ex-deyi teachers they have nice nice paper prints.. and i'll always buy polka dot paper from there.

our reunion dinner went really cool. prepare the steamboat food really shack.. i cut the mushroom into half already quite sian. i prefer washing the floor in the morn with mei mei. the floor is always filled with fur, soil and lots of kaka and after we cleaned it we couldn't bear to let the dogs run around. after pack my dusty and messy table. after that me and mom and sis took a nap together. biao jie was still sleeping n dad is not back from msia. then we do leg exercises together and fell aslp. really tiring day. and i haven't been training for surf sweat.. haiz nuah mode already.

i wonder how my exchange application went.... hmm really hoping for a favorable reply from them. :)

2009-01-24T23:39:00.000+08:00

my sis is evil. she beats me.

cheryl

2009-01-24T23:36:00.000+08:00

i want to blog

2009-01-13T00:03:00.002+08:00

i dropped jap today, timetable looks better, lesser late evening-night classes, from 4 to 2 still.. i've figured it out the last ue could serve me well in exchange too. I seem to have a tendency to fall sick for first week(s) in hall. feeling not very well, probably cos i'm tired out from the weekend. hah anw thinking about the eye mask qq bought for me from taiwan makes me so excited and happy about using it. haha my black eye ring and eye bags will disappear! maybe i should buy cucumber and do some self-therapy in hall LOL. anw mom's bday today! she's quite old but still youthful and quite childish and zi high a bit. i wish her health, safety and happiness. i've discovered the $2 bak chor mee stall in can9 is replaced by mixed vege stall but still 2 meat 1 vege still $2! haha i'm gg there to eat everyday le. i hope the stalls in can11 close down or smth, like give out discount or cards to put the chop on.

2009-01-11T23:04:00.002+08:00

mr daisy and ms portulaga - the new members to our garden besides july and thunder!

anw to celebrate mom's bday, we woke up at 7am to go eat mee sua at maxwell, and then changi coastal walk. took a lot of photos. then, sleep in the noon and finally a di.nner at italian restaurant.

and ytd was CAN run at smu. we really did wacky stuff like putting pasting letters on our backs, making up 'singapore' and wearing shades and taking photos during the entire run. only at house comm will such things happen. gosh! after that, met up with ys supposedly for a movie but i was so blur and mistook the timing lol. anw it was better that way haha.

weekends ended like that.. and little homework has been done as a result ha.

2009-01-07T21:10:00.004+08:00

i've monday blues, tues blues and apparently wednesday blues. see tmr got more blues or not. but confirm its not something like time of the month or what. haaiiii think i'm just not used to school, still want more holidays.. bbrrrr. at least fri and sat won't be blue days. humph some lecturers are quite cui.. makes me feel like i'm not learning anything useful for the environment.. hai those exchange students to ene like made the wrong decision haha. prob i'll just rely more on textbooks this time round. bbbrrrr. my novo slippers broke ytd in sch. suay suay both slippers spoil at the same time.. but quite cool la i ended walking around sch bare-footed. and..... i couldn't think of much more to nag. just feeling pissed at nothing in particular. bbrrrr

i need more happy food and happy outings and happy things in my room! shall hunt for olive green round carpets when there's time! i need to buy more coffee, biscuits and food. i need to settle all the textbooks required and start mugging peacefully too.

since there's still time to laze around.. time to let some stuff off which is cluttering my brain.. like i dunno what to do in the future.. i have always wanted to be an air stewardess for a very long long time, like a secret back-up ambition if i cant be a marine biologist. then now... like quite impossible cos of family and blah blah blah like the sleazy work culture and stuff.. so i shall work towards finding a good job which takes me around the world! like being an foreign matters environment minister lol. prob smth to do with traveling and doing some environment job.. which leads me to doing a good job in uni right now.. i have been studying hard for this sake, and i don't really feel smart about myself even though i'm getting all A's.. like i dont feel empowered with the real knowledge about stuff.. oh well.... i'll do my own readings someday to enlighten myself haha. seriously, getting degree does not mean u're so smart or smth, this is what i feel right now. oh well... i'll just study and do my part for family and society. someday when i earn enough money or strike 4d i'll really travel round the world and donate and do relief work. dont understand y some people, mostly girls and even guys are so engrossed in their LV world.. dunno what is so good about 1 bag.. so leathery and aunty.. they should wisen up and do something good for the society with their money instead right??

2009-01-06T22:09:00.003+08:00

school's started! this sem is going to be crazy, will be experiencing a different kind of stress. got screwed exam schedule, as in elective exam is 1.5 hours after the core exam ends. so while moving to venue, collecting exam papers can take up to 40 minutes. having like 5-6 core subjects also. 2 electives. a grand total of 25AUs. time to start studying though its still early.

2008-12-29T00:13:00.002+08:00

life's been busy for me. attending gatherings! i was so thrilled and glad to see some crossers like logesh, sockling, emily and more! u know although we all haven sort of drifted apart and have not been meeting up, but they still bother to come.. so that to me is already enough! big thanks to brian suihui and zzz! pictures up soon..

the week of christmas was okay.. minimal spending.. but things i like always turn out not so cheap. i finally bought my first covered shoes those lady type for more than $50. i just happen to take a liking to it. and also earrings and a top and a muji post it. other than that, i haven been buying anything for myself.. bought a scheduler or daily planner for ys cos he's gg to be a busy teacher and a notebk for xmas exchange. haven't been on a binge except for waraku and porridge buffet with zzz lingx and aileen.. everybody says i'm thinner.. oh wells.. kind of glad i din work these holidays.. cos i wouldn't have the time to go back school to train or meet up with friends if i do so..

biao's sickness is improving, slowly. not exactly sickness.. u could say she's overcoming herself. ytd out from hospital and we all went to qq and siqi's house for the night! we played ticket to ride and saboteur.. so happy been so long since we stayed over there. brings back our childhood memories!

wanna watch more movies before school reopens. ip man is my most most most favorite movie! haha random..

btw checked my results just now cos i was watching jap drama.. so happy it improved! at least this will make my parents and others happier wheee.. i'm gonna do better next sem

2008-12-22T00:09:00.002+08:00

so much stuff going on noW! met up with lots of ppl, which kept me very happy.. went back school quite often to train with zzz and lingx. met up with house comm for ash's bday and saw lots of random vj ppl as well.. joyce's back and she's looking as great as before. so envious of ppl studying overseas. freedom to explore, live and immerse. contemplating for exchange in yr3 already.. and went out with lingx zzz and dex on a random sunday. quite unexpectedly fun cos there's 3 girls and 1 guy and there's like nth to do in orchard except shopping n eating. lingx left early and we suddenly start eating random food we could find like the fish pancake orange julius aunt anne's. walked into loads of shops and into weird shops like tiffany n co pretending to be a customer and we tried to take this armani xchange underwear box. hopefully lots of crossers will turn up for the 27th xmas party wheeeee!

getting really sianed about results and sem 2.. totally not looking forward to this. i'm definitely hoping for a gpa higher than cgpa to pull it up. if not, i'll work harder nxt sem.

yr of 21st bdays coming, meaning burning a big hole in my pocket. i'm thinking of a charity-based-bday-party-for-wwf since my parents so enthu abt org bday party for me. in this way ppl do not need to think so hard about what to buy and how much to spend and worry about collecting money from friends and such stuff. had experienced my share of such hassle in progs.

2008-12-17T22:54:00.002+08:00

1st event meeting over.. recee next week. i did 40 laps today.. so proud of this small achievement.. cos its almost non-stop! but its at this restricted pool. come to think of it, did some well exciting stuff.. like driving!

2008-12-16T23:59:00.004+08:00

gatherings have been popping up every 3-4 days. met up with zzz and lingx back in sch for a run. did 8k. whoa man i felt so slow and nowhere near my old self 3 years ago. back then, really felt strong and could run fast for entire 8k or more. damn knee.. if my knee is not like that i would have pushed myself very hard this hols. i've have to stick to swimming.

also met up with 5g house comm. nogstalgic man.. i remember we used to have so much fun together, i cant exactly pinpoint what we did.. but all the school stuff that we gone through.. like orientation or open house and everything sums it up. i remembered our house aquila comprising of jennhaur, jacq,kaixiang and me was quite ups de cos champion house. but i dun remember at all what i contributed exactly.. but everyone's little efforts made a difference. sigh.. i concluded that college life was the best part of my life. cross country and house comm. what happened to my uni life man.

what's left of now is 2 more weeks to school. will miss the times when there's nothing to do. cos slowly more and more things will be piling up in front of me. hai i really feel like starting to study. not because i'm so enthu about it but to make sure i'll more free when school starts. shit i've been slacking too much after stanchart. need to push myself!!