.just me and everything

YY .Saturday, December 05, 2009.

it's time to get a life! this semester feels particularly fast and slow. anything and everything that happened before the semester starts feels like a long time ago, yet the feelings vividly remain. so it's a fast and slow semester to get through. and taking 7 papers had been the most draining experience so far. imagine doing some hardcore studying every single day for exams ever since the end of october till now. time to chill !

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2:01 AM

YY .Wednesday, December 02, 2009.

the lyrics, vibes, super gd dance (and singing not too bad) makes me go high while studying.. not forgetting the sorry song.. wah seh i love the dance

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1:06 AM

YY .Thursday, November 26, 2009.

3/7. the road feels long. keep going and hang on! structures was o-k, unsure of all my answers. looking at simple trusses/structures/frames everywhere just reminds me of mechanics of materials. now, simply looking at columns, slabs, beams makes me feel so engineer-ish.

mugger machine has been running and is running..

.:.

happy birthday dear sister, hope u'll get to do volcanoes one day.

.:.

some videos i saw on youtube lately:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9OWFI4_Q8Wk :]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d-wN5-NvC8g :o

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QFCSXr6qnv4 :|

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x6QA3m58DQw :D

& i'm going to get these after my exams: miniature patisserie

http://aiclay.blogspot.com/

YYY

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1:47 PM

YY .Saturday, November 21, 2009.

come to think of it, i have been studying almost every single day ever since school started, and i will be studying all the way until 4th dec. solid waste paper was not very good, there are loads of weird questions.. did manage to crap out some answers, but it might not turn out well. i try not to think about getting back my 4.5, lest it stresses me more. but everyone in ene this sem is particularly hardworking, so i guess better grades are harder to get now. all the best! tentatively i might be leaving sg around mid-end jan.. time to start preparing my visa

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4:32 PM

YY .Monday, November 09, 2009.

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11:53 PM

YY ..

a random person dreamt of me crying. do i look that sad? i'm not sad! i'm just feeling super crappy, kind of stressed and suffocated these days. exam stress :| typical. and i totally got a shock on friday: dad had a minor eye op! he din tell us cos we're busy mugging for quizzes and exams. feel kind of useless to be so holed up due to exams. thinking abt exchange is a gd way to destress a little, and of cos some things will be put to the test during then. old rose said "A woman’s heart is a deep ocean of secrets."

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1:38 AM

YY .Thursday, November 05, 2009.

just had 3 quizzes for the past 3 days. drained to the max. usually i won't feel sian so fast. left one more quiz next thurs. as much as i was feeling homesick after not going back home last week, i'm loving hall more and more, and thanks to my roomies :) whom i can really really talk to about everything, giving every day some closure before i sleep. gotta start finding back the drive after not having a productive day. and school has not been kind.. not wanting to meet the some people, and then just appear. and the weather around asia has been terribly gloomy. philippines and vietnam hit by typhoons. gloooomy. hope that the relief efforts are coping well. i've decided to start swimming!

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1:08 AM

YY .Friday, October 09, 2009.

while i spent my week getting engrossed in school work, getting messed up when it comes to dwelling into hopeless possibilities all over again..

everything outside seem even more messed up than myself. there were earthquakes, storms.. with millions in a more unfortunate predicament. made a donation to the red cross ytd, hope that at least a little good will come out of it for the disaster victims. probably i'll head towards humanitarian or animal relief work someday, maybe. i kind of hope i can help baby leatherback turtles.

can't believe i'm been dwelling in useless thoughts all this time, after moving on (declaration: yes, moved on.) but moving on in a wrong direction, i think

anyway, the mugger spirit in me hope that i can start pyp next week. and then i recalled my coursmates have already started discussing questions. ene virus

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10:54 PM

YY .Saturday, October 03, 2009.

after waiting for 6 months, DTU emailed me, to say that i'm accepted as an exchange student for Spring 2010. email account next year s094239@student.dtu.dk. now there's something to keep me smiling all day, run away from sg and away from all the silly thoughts in my mind! got to start planning: plane tix, date, living, some financial planning, places to go. there're lots of things i wanna do, like backpacking round europe, drink some cold beer in giant mugs of volume >1.325l, go see icebergs, whales, try winter sports, extreme sports, take part in humanitarian work, save wild animals etc. hopefully i can get to do such things which i can never never accomplish in sg.

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10:25 PM

YY .Thursday, October 01, 2009.

i'm back at mt ermei to cultivate the study qi.. free from all distractions in the mortal realm. hohoho. but still unable to escape one lust - the lust for shopping! not the spend money feeling ah but cos i've been wanting to get something. recess week is ending. so sad! i haven't study finish, and play enough. one night at prog chalet is not enough!

YYY

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11:14 PM

YY .Tuesday, September 22, 2009.

school life has been quite happening. first there was sports ball. was totally overhyped, but much toned down in terms of the alcohol, nonetheless people still get drunk and i spent much time clearing up drunk people like thomas if there's a big4 to describe it. there was bailey-smell puke and piles here and there. hotel rooms in the end became totally crowded with drunk people and ok people still active. went to htht with yuqi, felt better to clear all the useless and confusing thoughts in my head, became tired at around 7+ so i slpt at the lift lobby. and yes shangri'la is still very cui. but sentosa is good. went bumming around with some other outings and events. finally had bak chor mee ah baling etc at bedok blk 85, celebrated christie's and jeremy's bday at allan's secret hideout, went for prog recruitment drive, celebrated yingli's bday and went for kent's comms ball. more happy memories for me to forget about studies haha. luckily hydraulics quiz went well i think. comms ball at st regis was totally super classy and grand. much better than ritz carlton. i'll never forget the ballroom decor. and i think it would be every girls' dream come true to have her wedding there. and the urge to do skydiving has never been stronger. wahaha

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12:04 AM

YY .Friday, September 04, 2009.

got B- for IO, the reason i could think of is that i dunno how to please my bosses and be whoever according to what they expect, so as to fulfil their criteria of a good employee, despite getting work done. got quite upset over the grade, and what's worse the cGPA got demoted to a second upper. i thought my performance would suffice for a B, partly due to some lack of interest in work, partly due to sports camp stuff. i won't blame those external commitments. anyway, all i can say is i super hate office politics and all the pretentious fronts. to the max.

i'll just study harder, not just for the stupid sake of my cGPA, but also as a testament to the growth in depth inside me.

just super sianed. drank ytd, got totally gone. really have to thank them for being there whenever i'm down. as its really from the heart.

argh just sianed... super moody mode.

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7:17 PM

YY .Tuesday, September 01, 2009.

feels like week 8 of school now. hardly coping any better.

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5:56 PM

YY .Sunday, August 30, 2009.

had much more time for myself and my friends, cousins, family. i realised how much (somehow) i had neglected them. my fault for being involved in other things which i thought was important, be it studies or relationship. i've learnt to have my dinner slower, to enjoy laughs/talks with whoever i was eating with; enjoy walking with friends in school, blah blah blah.. i did used to do such things, but i think i appreciate them better now, probably with a mind less preoccupied..

anw i feel very girly once again. i went shopping on my own.. and for the record i think i enjoy shopping when i know what to buy and where to get it and knowing that it was necessary, and hate wandering around looking for things to buy. plus people i shop with have to be gd girlfriends or family. so i got myself new shorts, and a pair of black heels for ball. dunno y the black heels make me feel quite happy for the rest of the day! quite childish i think..

anw i dunno when i'll be free to make a trip down to the east to get alan's fridge. but the thought of having chilled coffee, beer, milk and green tea inside makes me feel angry at myself for being so nuah..

nuahssss

getting slightly curious, i wonder who are the audiences for this blog.

YYY

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12:30 PM

YY .Tuesday, August 25, 2009.

these 2 weeks has been rather eventful.. sometimes busy at nights, can sleep at 5 plus or leave hall at midnight.. anw i still enjoy hall life so far! get to cohabit with my dear sister and 2 other cousins.. so i feel very at home all the time. yay!

also feeling quite sad that i'm leaving progs. hai hai hai

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10:09 PM

YY .Wednesday, August 12, 2009.

getting used to my hall 15 life.. apparently the bed is too comfortable till i wake up late 2 days straight.. in the end i missed a lecture today. anw i'll start studying hard this week! no more excuses :) and lectures are boring, and notes as useless as before.

.:.

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8:54 PM

YY .Sunday, August 09, 2009.

argh school is starting. feeling nuah.. got to start studying, getting stressed, less play. got my chance to squatter once again, now at hall 15. nuah to e max.. my week after sports camp was very much spent on sleeping. slpt about 12 hours almost everyday.

more time to stone and think, about anything or maybe nothing for now..

单身万岁 yeah man.

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6:25 PM

YY .Wednesday, August 05, 2009.

back from sports camp! seriously mentally and physically straining for me, even though i'm not a freshie anymore. still challenging to run a camp with my fellow progs and other 'backstage' people such as the log and welfare people. in total i think i had less than 12 hours of sleep for that 7 days. thankfully the weather was good and sea ex sea sports went smoothly (generally)! this yr's cohort seem more closely knitted? maybe its because of many freshies getting fever. and i'm practically a station master for every games event, or at least a controller. think every prog should know why lah.. last but not least, i got to observe or at least see almost everyone in camp having fun, so mission accomplished! all photos up on fb :)

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2:07 PM

YY .Friday, July 24, 2009.

been a busy week so far. staying up late, reaching home late, waking up late, doing lots of things. like going to indoor stadium to see kobe (for free :) and gg for tp walk thru.. camp is next week, and there are still things unsettled. hmmm worrying. time to finish everything, and try to swim more. everything happy starts from gd food and drinks and friends..

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11:51 PM

YY .Monday, July 20, 2009.

talked and ate a lot today, let everything unhappy out. i'm glad i found another good cup of quality coffee to chill out with.

tmr is gm day. somehow i guess it wouldn't be full attendance. anyway i'm proud that ahay about 90% full attendance 99% of the time. ahay!

time to be uptight!!

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12:12 AM

YY .Saturday, July 18, 2009.

i feel a few good years older after talking to jacq and jenny. argh i feel so much better. they're like a cup of really gd quality coffee.

wow i totally BTH that kind of work attitudes. guess i'll be super recluse at work/guarded.. no point bitching around here. but yeah people do lose themselves, do things which i see no logic in till now..

anyway, this week(s) has been quite crazy.

breakup
heartbroken like siao
crossers
long GM
got drunk (with reliable friends ard) [shh]
'saw through' human nature @ work
talk non-stop for 2hrs
became gd friends

thanks to everyone who's been part of this events.

i think the mambo spirit in me has awaken LOL

YYY

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12:16 AM